Angel

Kamusta ka na kaya?

Naalala mo rin kaya ako pag minsang madilim

  at wala kang ka-yosihan?

Naalala mo rin kaya ako pag naabutan ka ng ulan sa daang

  walang payong at nakikisilong lang?

Naalala mo rin kaya ako pag friday

  at wala kang magawa? (Bakit friday ba ngayon?)

Kinakabahan ka din kaya sa twing may makikita kang

  kahawig ko pag nakatalikod, at pag humarap na’t di ako ay napapabuntong hininga ka?

Naalala mo rin kaya ako sa twing may pagbubuksan ka ng pinto?

Naalala mo pa kaya kung pano mo ako asarin na ang liit liit ko?

Naalala mo rin kaya ako pag wala kang makausap ng matino?

Naalala mo rin kaya ako pag minsang walang makaintindi sayo

  at iniisip mo kayang sana anjan na lang ako?

Naalala mo pa kaya ako bilang ako?

It has been 12 days since the effectivity of my resignation and it hasn’t been easy.  Life for me for 4 years is only composed of my family, SMART, and Bong (not in the order of importance though, just in order of which came first in my life).  Since Bong left, I kept myself busy with work in SMART that even making tambay at the Wireless Center has been a habit of mine.  Almost 12 hours of my day are spent at the WC where I made new friends, no, new barkada who stood with me through life inside and outside SMART.

It has been 12 days and I couldn’t keep myself from making tambay every now and then.  It has been 12 days and I soooo miss doing my everyday work, plus handling Irate subscribers, plus dealing with stupid (sorry) people from other departments. 

For 4 years I’ve developed a new sense of life not being thought nor acquired in UP during my college days.  Most people say that I have changed a lot, from a student who wears tsinelas and shorts to the University to a young achiever who works in pumps.  Yes, maybe I’ve changed a lot because I’ve learned a lot especially with my most recent manager.  And no, I didn’t quite change coz deep inside, amidst all the hustle and bustle of everything, I remain to dream a simple life, just to work (probably in SMART pa din), get married, have babies.  And letting go of SMART is quite like letting go of my dreams.

I sure will miss my SMART family, my clients whom I haven’t seen so much since I’m not handling frontline anymore, my SMART barkada who made life in SMART easy with their laughter, their comforting hands, and their heart.