the one with the thoughts on the plane
March 9, 2006
And so here I am again. Standing on a foreign soil from which I never dreamt nor wished to set foot on. Leaving the life I have fallen in love with to live a love I have chosen. It didn’t dawn upon me that I am almost leaving the forever I have wanted to have not until I found myself sitting not to mention my back aching on a 24-hour journey to the life I have chosen. Ehile watching "Put books into FILM" and hearing Daniel Radcliffe’s voice over the headset the airline hath provided. I just found myself bursting into tears as I realize that I have left my life behind me, the life that I have so loved and the people who I have grown with, laughed with, cried with…the people that I love.
And yes I am crying, not because I have had no choice because now I realize I did have a choice, like Lomel always reminded me to have. I am crying because I am selfish, thinking that I have left my hopes, my dreams, and my future in the country I have so loved, not thinking that I have a new life now and I am about to build new hopes, and new dreams with the man I chose to be with for the rest of my life.
Leaving is not the end of everything it seems. It is just a beginning of the new life we are about to take.
March 10th, 2006 at 5:13 am
Welcome back
March 15th, 2006 at 4:38 pm
Thanks theena =)
March 19th, 2006 at 9:20 am
we are all faced with choices - sometimes they’re easy to make, sometimes they’re not. i’ve always believed that when we choose to leave our comfort zones, we would eventually find ourselves the better for it -not because we chose to let go, but because we had the courage to embrace the unknown.
sis, give yourself time. believe me, it gets easier. besides, you have friends here, myself included.