Angel

     It’s kind of a back to reality thing for me… those two and a half months of vacation was a blast that I almost didn’t want to come back. I miss the meals I had with my family. I miss my nephew and niece whom I will be seeing in three years time. I miss my nephew’s charming beautiful big eyes and the way he responses to the command “bye”, the way his hand waves at you while his eyes are looking at you kind of like saying “can I go with you?”. I miss the way my niece hugs me when I carry her and sings along with me when I sing to her to make her stop crying, most of all I miss her infectious smile. They are two wonderful little children that made my vacation really well worth it .

     So now am back to reality, kinda like the song carrying that phrase. Back to housewife that I am, only now with her husband more than 1,100 miles away, oh yes, in the same country, just at the far end of it. I’ve been packing for 4 days now, by myself, and lifting and carrying all the boxes from here and there to the storage for safe keeping for a month. I am tired, but I have to pack some more before I leave for my flight to Sanfo tomorrow. And every now and then, amidst the packing, lifting, carrying and driving, I break down and cry… have I gotten used to my husband doing all the hard things for me? Or do I just miss him so much…. And I am so scared being alone in a strange community where I don’t know anyone and people are looking at me from head to foot while carrying big boxes. Friends are more than 20 miles away, just 20 miles away but I couldn’t get myself to go to them because my schedule of packing, lifting, carrying and driving won’t allow me to.

     In these 4 days, I have no one but Christ to strengthen me do all the things I need to do… and amidst all of the things that are keeping me busy, I find myself praying to God for help, for guidance and for peace of mind. I won’t be able to do all these things by myself, it’s Christ who have strengthened me. And hopefully after all these things are done, I will come out as a better person, a better Christian.

     So now, back to work.